- The granddaughter of late former SA president Nelson Mandela took to social media to open up about her grandma, Ma Winnie Madikizela-Mandela's death
- Zoleka was quiet after her grandmother's died in April
- However, an emotional post on Instagram showed South Africans how Ma Winnie's death affected her
In April South Africa mourned the death of struggle icon Ma Winnie, and social media was flooded with messages of social media users pouring their hearts out over the loss of the mother of the nation.
One person who stayed mum on the tragic loss of Ma Winnie was her granddaughter, Zoleka. However, TimesLIVE reported the 38-year-old finally broke her silence on the death of her grandma in an emotion-filled Instagram post.
"I have the memories of the last few days constantly streaming through my mind. You've said more to me in your visits, their dreams but I wish you had said something to me on Friday when we attended your last Good Friday service together, do you remember how pensive you were during the church service and how I kept checking if you were okay, you were't sleeping through the entire service as you had started doing?"
"You were always so tired and in pain. I wish I spent the night again when you asked me to that Saturday because you would have woken me up in the early hours of the morning when you felt the tightness in your chest. Ma, I only left because you always want us to talk until the early hours of the morning when we have our sleepovers in your bed and I needed you to rest because you had started feeling sick. I wish you had said something to me when we were alone in your bedroom on Sunday, those moments when I helped you get ready for hospital or when I packed your bag just before we left?"
"I held your hand the entire time we drove to hospital, all you did each time I squeezed your hand was look up and smile but no words. I don't know if you knew that I was waiting outside for you the entire time, you would have hated the thought of me sitting on some chair outside your ward and crying my eyes out and not on the blue lazy boy right next to your hospital bed like I always did? Why did you wait until I left the hospital to go home and change, for you to take your last dying breath without me?"
"Is it because I always fell apart when you got sick or when you were in pain that I never gave you the chance to be weak so I could be strong for you for a change? I'm sorry, Ma. I'm falling apart at just the thought that you must have felt so alone at that time if you did, I'm crying because you didn't have to keep your dying a secret from any of us. If you needed me to be stronger for you to tell me that you only had a few more days, I know I wasn't and I'm truly sorry. I have so much guilt. Please know that when these words I write you and those I say to you are not enough because you don't always respond to me, I want and have always wanted to be everything for you," she captioned a video on Instagram.
The post received a lot of attention from Instagram users, who were left reaching for tissues after the emotional letter.
Social media user masego_3 wrote, "You were the first person i thought of when i heard about her passing. I can't even imagine how you are feeling right now because what you had was so special. You let the whole world know how much she meant to you in life -your day 1. As her first grandchild you also meant the world to her. It was clear and i was always looking forward to your post about her. May the beautiful memories comfort you."
Tshidiski added, "Oh Zo! This is so painful. But healing as well. Continue to Cherish these moments. You did your best, it was time for her to rest.. So much love you shared together."
Zoleka and Ma Winnie were very close. As Briefly.co.za reported previously, the mother of the nation insisted she and her granddaughter wore matching outfits when Zoleka graduated earlier this year.
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